[MERCH] MONSTA-X Seasons' Greetings / Calendar 2016

Hey Guys!!

So I recently bought the Monsta-X Calendar set and I have also done a very clumsy video of the contents in it. This is actually my first time buying an official calendar for a bias group.
I checked out unboxing videos for the iKon one and the BTS one , and then realised why they were priced more than this one. They included stuff like a DVD , poster and more stuff . (the Ikon one was themed).

I had ordered this with a bunch of BTS albums that my friends had ordered and my 24K's second Mini album so the pack came in a pretty tattered condition but thankfully , none of the albums or the contents inside were damaged. (the box for this was damaged a bit)

This package was roughly around $22 and it came with a table calendar and a planner (in the calendar) , A diary planner and 3 postcards.

As a student majoring in Design ,I must say that the calendar is well-designed. There are photos with a mini calendar on one side and a planner on the back side.
The photographs are wonderful . . not too vibrant nor too dull. I really love the pictures for April and the later months!
Plus I am a lover of the pastel tones , so this is a win.

Then comes the planner diary.

The planner diary is very simple. It has a calendar /planner inside and there are the Member's birthdays and the debut anniversary mentioned on the respective pages for their months.
And it's really cute how they haven't mentioned normally but have written it as "Kihyun Day" , "Wonho Day". (excuse my biased-ness)
Other than that there are a bunch of ruled pages and blank pages with around 12 pages of photos.

The three postcards have OT7 on them and they're basically the same pictures from the calendar.

This is actually my first time buying merch like this , and I personally think that this was pretty satisfactory to the amount I paid. Also , I do think I might buy the ones that are released next year!

So Here's the video I made for the calendar 2016.

Do let me know what you think of it. :D

Hello Everyone

This post is not something light like all my other posts on this blog, but in fact something that a lot of us might be suffering from on a daily basis.
As a student, I studied quite a bit about this in Psychology when I was in grade 12.
what most definitions would tell you is..

"a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease about something with an uncertain outcome."

Anxiety is a general term for several disorders that cause nervousness, fear, apprehension, and worrying.

It's far more than just worrying because it can affect a person's way of behaving and they can manifest real physical symptoms.

Mild anxiety is vague and unsettling, while severe anxiety can be extremely debilitating, having a serious impact on daily life.

Now I bet all of you who are reading this must have been thinking of why I chose such a sensitive topic to write about. . .
There are a lot of reasons to it, one of which being the way that people address these disorders / situations.
On a daily basis , you will see people who are often saying things like "Oh I was so depressed last night," or "I got social anxiety so I did not go for the family event this time". Just make a note that, Anxiety or Depression are not phases of life that you can use in the form of daily life words.

I have been suffering from anxiety since a very young age. It can vary from the butterflies you feel in your stomach before an exam to the fear of facing people when you've been forced to attend a social gathering.
Certain situations from school when I was really young have been great contributors to this. .
I have been suffering from anxiety since I was 11.
 Ever since I was a child, I wasn't very interactive. I often used to get sidelined while playing with the kids from my area or just quietly be a follower of the group.

I never really used to talk to many people until I got into grade 11 and then college, I stay in a dorm and from someone who is not quite acquainted with the art to talking to a many people, It was quite difficult for me to get used to meeting new people everyday.
At first, I used to have a lot of problems in getting along with my old roommate, until I moved into my friend's room.That too, had aroused too many trust issues.
College is obviously not a smooth route, considering it being an art college. Although there aren't many people in a class, it still is a bigger cause to the competitiveness around. All of these situations were caught up in my mind, having me have panic attacks on a regular basis.

Like the definition speaks, Before our exam . . I'd get really nervous and then either begin to cry non-stop or just sweat a lot. These are all symptoms, they do count.
My friends would often look at me and say "Stop thinking about it"  "Stop being a drama queen"  "You cry over the pettiest things"  "What's wrong with you!?" "You panic way too much"  and more stuff.

Well the thing here is, all of this is NOT drama!
It's anxiety. .

Around two months ago, my health was not very good and I thought I'd kickstart fresh once I am back from my semester break.
Things never really changed but for a week or two when I attended college like I usually would.. and then got a viral fever again. This viral fever stayed for a really long time.
A lot of my classmates just thought that I was faking my sickness to ditch class, which was not the case. After consulting a bunch of doctors, I went to this physician who gave me a good medicine. That too, had side effects that induced drowsiness and had me oversleep.
My eating habits eventually began to get very very messy because I kept skipping meals.
After all of this mess, I was okay by the end of November and attended the new class that was being going on this month.
I must have attended two days of that class and the pressure was real. I could have kept up with the class but I was still recovering and I had to stay up all night for the work.
The next morning , was the day when I had a major panic attack.
I don't know what had happened to me, but I had nobody to share this with. .  I did try sharing it with my best friends, but I did not know how to explain.
Normally they'd ask me to stop thinking about things too much but I wish I'd be able to do that.

It felt like everything in my subconscious mind was spilling out in an instant. Honestly, I've had complexes throughout my life. .  I don't really express them out , but everyone who knows me probably has an idea of it.
Right from my studies to my weight. i'm constantly worrying about it.
At that point, I didn't have a roommate. My roommate had moved out and I was told that I wouldn't be getting anyone until another two months. I did have friends, but they all had probably gone home or I just didn't want to burden them with my situation.

That day, I had a panic attack at 6am in the morning. I do not remember much of it but I regret that I tried to do something very very stupid that would have had a worse outcome.
I would not have gotten through this if it weren't my friend from the dorm who came to my room at 6am, waking up from her sleep just to answer my call.
I can't thank her more!

Comic Con Post and Mark Gatiss Sign Event!

Hello Everyone!

As you know , I had been for the Mumbai Film & Comic Convention MFCC 2014 and it was a great experience.
Not only am I going to update specifically about the Mark Gatiss Signing event but also the entire convention in short.

So , The whole thing was of three days and I initially had thoughts of not going on one of the days since it would be having very similar events but I was wrong. Firstly my friend and I were very hyped as we would not only be seeing people cosplaying as their favourite manga , anime , tv show or even comic characters but also we would enter a whole new world of new people with similar interests,

The entire venue was pretty small and the first day was empty~
We left really early to be reaching the singing event on time. The crowd seemed a bit faint in the beginning but then people gradually began to swarm up into the venue. I parted from my friend for a while , asking her to wait until my autograph session got over.
I had never imagined in my entire anti-social human being life that I would be able to make any friend by just waiting in a queue for an autograph session. I guess fandoms do bring people together. *cues all my internet buds* Also , the background of the place where we stood was very Who-Lock-ified

LOOK AT THIS

The Tardis!

So after what nearly seemed like an hour of waiting , We got to see Mark Gatiss. He looked too adorable in the pink shirt he wore that day -laughs-

This is what i could capture through that crowd standing in front of me.

So , It was almost half an hour since I waited for my turn patiently and then we were given tiny post-its to write our names on , so that it could be easier for him to sign over our stuff.
I had somehow managed to make a decent sketch out of the time I had freed for myself in the day before we left for home. I hoped that he would like it!

As soon as I was let onto the panel , I was very nervous when I approached Mark. He seemed very welcoming and even called out my name asking me "So , How are you doing?"

I legit stuttered while I answered him and I told him that I love both the shows. I then could see him chuckle when I handed over the fanart for the signature. (I bet it's because I messed up his nose!!)

I then , nervously asked him for a High Five which he probably misheard to be a hug and said "Nooooo" So I had to repeat the entire thing all over again after which I got a high five !
I walked out of the venue , very star-stricken.

A Happy Panda is spotted

A bunch of my College Friends cosplayed and I saw really really cool ones too!

There was a cosplay duo that had come from Japan and one of them freaking cosplayed as Sasuke from Naruto so professionally that we could not tell if she was a boy or a girl crossplaying.

I will promote a few of them here , but on permission cause I don't like mentioning names on the blog.

There were so many stalls , right from basic art necessities to apparels to action figures and merch and books and manga and what not! The artists' section was something I very keenly looked forward to and I also happened to meet one of my favourite ones!

Other than that , we ran into a couple of stalls that caught my eye.
Like this particular one right here.

Well Look what I ran into!

Holy Cow!

The overall crowd on the first two days was lesser compared to the last day which is probably the reason because it was a Sunday.
I was surprised at how some stuff from the stalls got sold out on the last day very quickly. (lesson learnt, call dibs on it as soon as you see it)
Plus , I really pity myself for not having learnt the art of shopping at a comic con.

Out of all of these , I managed to buy a Naruto Illustration Book and a Bleach Character book along with two Tokyo Ghoul Keychains and then some free posters and stuff illustrated by artists!

I won't really write much anymore but I guess this was my comic con experience in a nutshell.
Looking forward to the one next year!

Never really thought of cosplaying though -hides-
Anyway , Have a nice week guys!

Bye Bye guys!

The Blog's New Name and Comic Con!

Hello!

I am not updating much but I had to update for the new name I had thought for this blog.
The new name for this blog was initially going to be "The life of a spaced out potato" but then I realised that the name would be too strange and it wouldn't be something I would be able to illustrate in the future.

After various combinations of thoughts, I decided to land on to the title "The Daily Writings Of A Confused Soul." 

Well , I am a very spaced out person by nature and mostly confused , so the name suited out of all the combinations I have had.
Another name that I had thought for the blog was , "The outer space diary of my mind" and honestly , I did not know how I would explain the meaning behind it , so I cancelled it. ( the name seems very very vague though)

Also , lately we've all been watching a lot of good films in our Film Studies classes so I have been enjoying different kinds of films and stuff.
I am also very excited for the comic con I would be going to soon. It is in my home city and this is probably the first ever comic con I am going to go for~
The best part of it is , Mark Gatiss is one of the Special Guests for the event and he's going to have an Autograph session and I reeeeeaaaaallllly hope that I get to go for it!
Can't wait for next week at all!

Well for now , I think this is too much of an update.
Hope you all have / had a nice day!

Bye Bye!

Hellow Again

Hi Guys ,

It's been around a year since I went missing on this blog but I decided to update again as I felt like this is the only way I could relieve my stress.
Well , I am back and barely anything has changed. College is still stressful as ever , just that I am having a break that is making up for some sleep I had lost. And of course , good food from home.

I have lately been losing trust in some people very close to me because of certain things that have happened through the previous semester.
I guess I was wrong about trusting people very easily at all. . .

Dorm life isn't very easy at all LOL

Coming to a brighter side!
Guess who chopped her hair off to short!? My hair was growing in a terrible manner and growing thinner (due to the water and the stress) so I legit asked the hairdresser to chop it out completely.
I'm quite happy with what the result was ~ let me let you have a look
What do you guys think???

Going on an indefinite break

Hello there ,

To all those of you actually making efforts in reading my blog , I thank you so much.

Of course, posting here was a huge stress releasing factor for me but. . 

I would be going on an indefinite hiatus due to my depression, anxiety and health problems.

Plus , college is being so much of a stressor to this so I need to focus on college for now.
I don't know when I will be back but I'm surely gonna be back... 

I will try to post whenever I would be able to . . .

Bye Bye

A small update on my College Life

Hey there! i haven't updated in a while!  miss me? (LOL)
Well i did !

So yeah.. basically ... this was my first week in college ... I sort of missed my first five days of orientation so my life has been awkward until now.
I see everyone in groups .. or more than two people roaming around together ~ in the hostel as well as in the campus.
Well.. i do have a few people whom i know ...such as the two of my high school batch mates who know me pretty well than the others here.
Otherwise i am very shy and awkward to go and talk to anyone.
Well... My roomie , We are pretty much getting along well... but yet i am awkward and shy.

Well.. So we had this campus induction programme thing in which we were briefed about the institute and the campus and yeah.

The first few classes were really intense and ... the first two hours of class was literally sharpening a pencil with a freaking cutter LOL.

Also , At the dorm. . .
 I did manage to make a few friends and I keep hanging out with them and stuff ~
Dinner tables at the dorm are fun cause we all keep talking and its really fun hanging out with these guys.

That's all for today I guess. .

Beginning of A New Life

So this girl called RUKA finally got herself into a college -___-

Well , this would be the first time I would be staying away from home , From parents and from my beloved besties whom I am missing badly right now ... Don't worry I'll keep visiting you guys :)

Also college begins from tomorrow as in the 9th of July.
Which means I would be spending less time fangirling over my fandoms which is actually sad. 

And I won't be able to make covers cause I'm gonna be living with a roommate.

I think the course I have taken up is not gonna be textual :) since it's design!

I'm gonna major in animation after my sophomore year :) 

Well , now I have settled into my room and am using the wifi here and posting this on my blog. (which is pretty evident through this post)

So this is what my college looks like ~

I live in a dorm and it's only for girls . . . I hope I make some friends man.

This is what my room looks like :)

Don't mind the mess okay?  it won't give out a homely feel otherwise

And yes I even carried my beloved plushiessss which I cannot live without 

Also , there is my section for food in the closet ...mainly snacks

Junk-ing like a boss 

And I even had my first midnight snack today.
I didn't eat anything today due to excess of traveling and headache but I drank this orange juice with nata jelly crystals in it and it was really cool.

and also I had some of the rice crackers I bought from the nearby convenience store
they're pretty cool

So well yeah finally I am settled and will begin college from tomorrow.

Into the new world , with a new place , new friends , new experiences waiting forth for me...

I shall do my best and I love you all.

Bye Bye